I really just want to die!?

Just take a deep breath. Thats always a start is calming down. Everything happens for a reason and before you know it, it will all be over with. God does things for weird reasons but he already has an outcome for you, and he wouldnt have made you go through this if he didnt think you were strong enough to make it through. Please just hold on and dont give up hope. Just believe you can get through it because you can.